The illusion of deserve/not deserve is only possible in the realm of polarity. 
It is never a question of wether you deserve or not. That is merely based on mind.
Once you have found your True Self and you are willing and able to live in the Present Moment you will find that you are the one creating your meanders.. you are the one deciding where to aim and how to flow you energy. You will find yourself no longer in the realm of polarity but rather in the quesion of: Does this work for me or not?

Once you have found your True Self you will instantly know if what you are choosing is what works for you as a Being or not. If so: Good. If not: Choose again.

The importance of this message is that there is only the Now and as long as you are not choosing from what works for you will re-create from past experiences  or the illusion of what may or will come as your future. You will re-create the same patterns. Choosing what works for you in the Now means building a brand new trail of stepping stones. Go out, create your own pattern, your own trail! Let every Moment be full of exploration. Be present and be the Present.